~:Faith's Ramblings:~

Wed, Oct 27, 2004

Mood:

Time: 11:37 p.m.
Listening to: Perfect Love, Hillsongs

It sure has been a while since I have posted hasn't it. Yup stuff sure has happened but then, it's a given. It's been different, in a lot of ways, I've been seeing so much. Feeling so much. Learning to be sensitive to the Holy Spirit, realizing that I cannot force God to do something. I have to give it up to Him, you'll see me talk about this often. It's so important, yet so hard to do. We in our humanness have this need to control EVERYTHING! Haha...funny part is, we really don't have to nor should we, that's why God is there. And yet we stress ourselves out, make everything so much harder and more painful than it ever has to be.

Anyway, today has been pretty good. I've been a little annoyed with myself about a couple of classes that I skipped recently. I had actually decided to go today, and then I went to bed late and couldn't make myself go in the morning. I really have to go to Hebrew. I want to know the material before I go into the class but I'm pretty sure I'm losing that by not going to class. Sigh

Lol...I'm listening to Christmas music, and loving it! *Glory to God, in the highest* K..I have my tag board up as you can see. Tag me! I'm going to study some Hebrew...so take care and God bless!

Fri, Oct 21, 2004

Mood:
Time: 12:46 a.m.
Listening to: Arms of love, Vineyard

Hmm....well I know I should have tons to say, lol..and I did. Except now I'm too tired to say
much anyway! Haha..watch how this turns into a huge one! Let's see...yeserday I didn't go to my classes, I should have. But I did go with Rat, Greg and Ryan to the CCC training thing for Do You Agree with Byron?. It was a small group...lol..we did double it! But it was nice...we went through the tract/booklet thingy. And met some other people. Which is always good.

Then Rat and I went to the mall for a bit. We got runners on half price...tey may not be the most beautiful things, but they do make our rooms prettier! On the flip side I had a really nice time just hanging out with her. Lol...I know I live with her. But honestly I am seeing how we both tend to take each other for granted and at the same time just feel peace and love in the times we do spend one on on. It's nice to have this relationship. *Thank You Jesus for what You have given us.*

Today I woke up around 10-ish, but I got to talk to my aunt and my baby sister (cousin) on the phone. Awww...I miss my Baby Girl. And Angel Boy. I am praying for when I can see them! After I just bummed around, actually spent some time conversing with Rat and creating the Bible notes page. Then I went to work. I was so sleepy..I was fallign asleep..but it was a little boring too! Anyway, after Rat and Maki came to get me and we went to the 7-11 and I got a ten buck pack of the lottery tickets. Sigh...I won $3. But I'm annoyed. that I was gyped at Crossword! lol.

Okay I'm going to bed, but I have to say, God is awesome. He is the best father EVER!

Fri, Oct 21, 2004

Mood:
Time: 12:53 p.m.
Listening to: Perfect Love, Hillsongs (Christmas Album)

The name of the emotion icon I have today is jubilant. I saw it and I could think of no other word to describe how I feel. Jubilant. Wow, I cannot begin to tell you how joyful I am. I would be jumping up and down if I wasn't typing, or if my leg didn't hurt! Haha, I know, I'd still jump anyway!

I woke up wanting to cry....not sadness, but with so much joy, awe...how can I explain what God's love has done and is doing in my life? I decided to step out in faith, to finally go to the Campus Crusade Discipleship Group today. I'd been holding back, I let fear keep me from going forward with God. It's so awesome how He works. We talked about the Samaritan woman who went to draw water and met Jesus there. I learned what the term 'Divine Appointment' is. I was so filled with joy, WOW, Jesus meets us where we are! I loved the girls who were there. It really opened my eyes to see faith shining in people of my generation.

I had a really nice normal home time with Maki and Huggles. And I made Chinese soup, but I never got to have it cuz I went out to hang out with my friend Amy and Rat. Woohoo for God and for Fusion. We had such a good time talking and just really fellowshiping. When we got home it was 10! I really had no idea. And then wonderful bus system that we have the next bus she could take was at 10:45, so basically we spent close to 5 hours together. I cannot tell you how amazing God is in His placement of friends in our lives, and lol..the similarities in situations!

Today is the beginning of the 'Do You Agree with Byron' campaign. I'm really excited for what God is going to do. Check out the I Agree With Byron Webpage. I agree wholeheartedly, Do you? I'm in the planning stages of creating a page of my Bible notes. I hope to have that up soon. Until then,I often talk to God about this, and I mentioned it tonight, so I thought I'd share: If you want to make God laugh, tell Him your plans!

God bless you!

Tues, Oct 19, 2004

Mood:
Time: 10:23 p.m.
Listening to: Deeply in love, Hillsongs

Wow...today has been beautiful. It is really nice to be so pumped and raring to go again.

I had a test/mid-term today in Anthropology, and I hardly spent time studying. But it's one of those classes that I actually enjoy reading the notes and I remember lectures so it's not too bad. Anyway, the prof took up the answers and it looks like I actually did awesome! Well...let me not get ahead of myself here. I'll wait and see what it comes to.

I got to talk to my friend Margie today, I miss her so much. I wasn't really close with her when she was here, but over the summer our relationship changed. She's such a blessing to me. I am so thankful for her, I hope I never take that for granted.

Well, on a funny note, this guy, Mark who I went to high school with finally came online. So I said hi and told him who I was just in case. And then He says River? Oh hi, how'd you find me? And have you talked to Mark, cuz I haven't in f****n ages. I was so confused. But yea, he thought I was another River and was talking about another Mark.

K study time! Hebrew is really bringing me down. lol..in the words of Jen 'Hebrew is kicking my ass. I need a Jew'!

Tues, Oct 19, 2004

Mood:
Time: 12:22 a.m.
Listening to: The Best Thing, Avalon

Wow! Monday has been so amazing. God is so so good! When I think about how I have fallen and yet He si so faithful...let me tell you, there is no way for doubt!

Today has been pretty interesting, I have found that the power of the Lord is so so incredible. One of the girls who I live with (who does not know Jesus) had a vision that really spooked her. Now she sees ghosts or spirits and well she tried to sleep after the vision that spooked her and had horrible nightmares about corpses of peopel she loves. She was so upset..I was so hurting for her. ANd she spent the night at her boyfriends place. It was pretty late at like 2 in the morning, yesterday. Anyway..He boyfriend who also sees spirits said when he came to get her he saw a figure in dark clothing outside the door. Okay, one let me tell you, that is spooky and two, that is evil!So yea..I was talking with Rat and she mentioned how earlier in the last week I was praying and I felt like God wanted me to annoint the house with oil. And I did it without hesitation.

K, somethign that you should also know is that I have been feeling like something is going wrong, something that is not positive may be happening...And my roomie who was spooked said she felt the same. But I gave up the worry to God and now I'm aware of soemthign happeneing, but I have peace. Rat was saying how proclaiming the blood of Jesus on the house and also the annointing of our home made it so the evil spirit could not come in. Such a God revelation! Yay God!

And then, at the Embassy, I started to feel like the Spirit was stirring in me and I turned to Rat and said I feel something. I think it's a good thing. She was kinda nervous that it would be something bad.But I was really sure that it was positive. Anyway...we met with a friend from my church youth group, and walked her to her residence. Now her residence is the opposite direction from where we normally have to go, but my Embassy group are so awesome that we walked her anyway! And it was a really nice time to reconnect with her and find out how God has been working in her life. After on the walk back guess who we see in the SLC window but my brother!(Cool fact number two, we never have to pass the SLC otherwise) Haha...well there have been certain issues with my brother and meeting him there with the Christian friends was beautiful. He came with us to have dinner! This is BIG I can't go into it all, but yea! It's so AWESOME!

I was talking with a new friend from my Hebrew class about it when I came and It so hit me how this is the good thing God was trying to show me. This along with 'Byron'...Go Campus Crusade!! But yea we were talking and she said to me about how she was so blessed because God brought me into her life. You know what? I am blessed by her, I thrive on talking about Jesus lol. I had prayed before this year started about God leading me to others in my classes. And knew she was Christian cuz she told me, but I didn't realize that I was placed in her life for this purpose or vice versa. (God is using her to reveal other truths to me) Isn't it great when the truth smacks you in the face! lol

I'm just so joyful right now. God is so so so good!

~ Mon, Oct 18, 2004 ~

Mood:
Time: 4:12 a.m.
Listening to: I can only imagine, Mercy Me

Hi all! I'm baaaack! Well I'm going to try to be!

As you can see, it's pretty darned late or early, depending on how you look at it. However, I have been feeling that I need to get this up and done. I had originally asked Jack to do it for me, hopefully he still will help me with it. But otherwise, you're stuck with my craziness.

There has been a LOT going on in my life since I last blogged, not that you would remember what I last blogged, seeing as the page looked like pure chaos. I forgot to check into miamihost.net and well..it's a mess! But well, here's to a new beginning.

My hope is that this blog will be (for whomever reads it) a source of inspiration. It's just about my ups and downs, but I pray that the one thing that will shine through it is the fact that Jesus lives, is awesome and that HE is there for you all! He has been working mightily in my life, and even though I do slip and fall... He's there to cushion the fall, and to love me back to Him. God bless you ... mail me if you need to! I look forward to hearing from you.